Zig Ziglar--Save Me Please!

I think all of this change in my life is getting to me.  I have been feeling pretty overwhelmed lately, and wish that I could just live out the rest of my life on an island, sipping iced tea and reading novels.  But, things are never simple.  I am not trying to be a Negative Nelly, but I feel so  out of control.  I want immediate solutions to all of my issues, and I want everyone to be happy all of the time and never have any troubles.  Especially my three babies.  When they were little, I was in control of everything they experienced.  I realize that part of letting them go is to allow them to make their own decisions in life, and ultimately, recover from their own mistakes.  But, I hate to see them hurting when they do, and I want to fix it.   Everyone around me just needs to realize that life would work out so much better if they would do it my way! ( Ha-we all know that's not true). I so desperately want to be in control of life--theirs and mine--and I am really not in control of anything--except, perhaps, my attitude!

Admittedly, my attitude has been awful lately.  Part of it is because I am in a new place in my life, and I feel like I am finding myself all over again.  Some of this experience has been wonderful.  Randy and I are having a great time together, and we still have a lot in common.  My house is rarely messy any more--gotta love that!  The grocery bill has been drastically reduced due to a lack of teenage boys in my house.  These things are all great.

I need to get back to being Pollyanna   I miss that part of myself.  But, I feel that life is trying so very hard to drag me down mentally.  I have to fight with everything I have to get rid of this horrible disease that is pervading my brain!  So, in an effort to improve my attitude, I rediscovered a favorite speaker/author of mine--Zig Ziglar!  Now, you may ask yourself, just who is this strangely named man?  He is a Christian motivational speaker who talks a great deal about how important it is to have a positive attitude.  People often notice my extreme optimism(usually--not right now), and I attribute this optimism to Mr. Ziglar and trying to do as he has instructed me.

Yesterday, I downloaded a book of his onto my Kindle.  I am reading it, and making note cards to look at several times a day.  I want my good attitude back, and I will fight for it!  Life is too short to be a Debbie Downer.  All of this time that I spend worrying and being upset about my lack of control is wasted time that can never  be regained.

Here are my lovely children, just a few years ago... Aren't they gorgeous?!?